File this under TMI?

So this is where we are at with my fertility story.  Having had my son, and waited the obligatory 12 months before we started trying for number two, I had a miscarriage about 3 months ago, after which we have been going through creche syndrome, each taking our turn(s) to be sick (with my turn normally coinciding with Joshua (my son), so I have to suck it up and look after him and be sick at the same time - which is really an enormous achievement, because usually I'm quite dramatic when I'm sick and expect to be brought soup (homemade, of course) in bed, and molly-coddled etc. (Yes, I did use the word molly-coddle, and if you wait a while, I may even throw in a whackadoodle too).


I have not really been paying much attention to my cycle since I miscarried again, because I didn't want to put myself under pressure and the breastfeeding means that I'm irregular, anyway. 


So, with no idea of when I'm due or even when I ovulated, why did I do a pregnancy test today?   My dog Muppet. 

I have noticed a trend.. whenever I am pregnant, she is incredibly affectionate.  She will be all over me whenever I sit down, and want to be on my lap.  Even when I don't have food. 

I went to the chemist to get a test (I don't know why I only got one.. I NEVER just take one..) and I couldn't actually tell.  It looked like there could have been a line there, but frankly the control line was so faint, I wondered how the test line could show at all.  So I toddled off to the chemist again and got test #2.  This time, the control line came up eventually (it took ages), amd my test seemed to be negative.  Until about 5 minutes later, that is.   

So I duly went for a scan, and I'm about 4 weeks pregnant.  Mike & I are super-excited and, as you can see, I take the joy where I can.  After 8 miscarriages, you'd think I'd wait until 12 weeks before sharing the news, but I reckon that the more people know, the more people share in my joy and the more support I will get if anything (God forbid) goes wrong. 

In the meantime, WHOOOHOOOOO I'm pregnant!  I can smell a dog's breath from across the road and I am rushing to the toilet to pee every time I take a sip of water.  I'm also quite a dragon at the moment.  I am particularly unreasonable and grumpy, apart from being ecstatically happy.. I think only people who are pregnant will understand how you can be thrilled and grumpy at the same time. 

Anyway, I'm off to bed at the same time as my toddler.. another good sign. 

Good night all 3 of my readers :P